Whew! Well, I have been on an emotional roller coaster lately. Things happen for a reason, this I do believe. Sometimes we cannot make sense out of why things happen in life. Other times it feels as though everything is falling precisely into place. Once in awhile though, it feels like both of those things are happening at once and we are left wondering where to go from here...
OK, I will break it all down:
HUGE freaking NEWS!!! We have a surrogate! Only a very few people know and I am not going to be revealing more at this time other than she is someone who constantly restores my faith in humanity. She is a very caring person who has seriously offered for a long time to do this for us. More to come...
My appointment: I went giddy as can be, and left hysterical in tears. My blood pressure was checked twice and was through the roof. The doctor was very concerned about my frequent ambulance trips and how my heart would do with some of these medications. Told me that right now they would not even touch me:( That if I went through this process and showed up to have my eggs removed and had blood pressure that high or SVT episodes they would refuse to do the procedure. I was very upset.
UPDATE: I spent most of yesterday talking to my lovely medical team and realizing that this will happen one way or the other. We will make adjustments and work on fixing me while we try to win the lottery so we can pay for this. If for some reason I am unable to physically do this, we will find a way to use donor eggs.
125 comments:
wow. this is great news.
friends and my sister have offered to be our surrogate but i dont know when to tell them i am ready. :(
i wish the best for you.
I can't imagine the rollercoaster you're riding. Knowing God has a plan always helps... Best wishes!
That "true strength" quote . . . it's perfect (I might have to borrow it to put on my blog)!
Kat @ In Dylan's Memory
Wow,I can't imagine what you are going through. Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.
I am not going to lie. You had me worried for you. I wrote yesterday's blog for you. I didn't mention you by name if you are feeling your blood pressure rising. I just know that sometimes we need hope or faith or just something to hold onto. Anyway, when I read this, I felt such relief. Things do work out. This will work out. ((Hugs))
that is awesome that you have a surrogate. I can't imagine how tough it is knowing that they wouldn't even attempt to retrieve eggs right now but hang in there. Like the PP said, God has a plan, even when you don't think so!
*hugs*
Hey sis....I hope that everything works out for you....deep breaths, lots of hugs, and prayers your way :) I love you!
Yay for the good news of a surrogate!! Sorry to hear that your health is not working to your advantage right now. Will pray for good health and that you guys end up winning the lottery!!!
**Best NEWS I've heard all day!!!**
God is so good!
Blessings to you, your health and your baby to come! ♥
Yes, everything is for a reason.
Everything will fall into place as it is meant to be! Sometimes you just have to wait for the storm to pass, and when we are in the middle of it sometimes its bright and shiny but we still need to come out the other end! And we are made to do so!
Hang in there and my thoughts and prayers are with you! Stay strong!
I absolutely love that true strength quote you posted!
I wish only the best for you guys, and I'm positive things will work out!
Now that is one roller coaster ride. Lots and lots of ((HUGS)) for you. I will continue to pray for you that everything works out.
My heart goes out to you! Praise God on finding a surrogate! That is awesome! I pray that your doctors can figure out your meds (without making you feel miserable) so that you can move ahead with the egg retrieval. I can sympathize with how crappy meds can make you feel (aren't they suppose to make you feel better??). (((hugs)))
Aww hun, I feel for you ! God does have a plan he just hasnt told you yet it will all work out for you and your family a big congrats to having a surrogate :)The rest will fall in to place am a big postive person sending nothing but good vibes your way through this journey your on Good Luck and thanks for sharing such a private moment. xoxo Connie
You are in our prayers. So happy you found a surrogate. {{HUGS}}
Great news! Best of luck and I know it will turn out will work out for you in the end!
WOW- great news and crazy news! I am glad your team is working together to make it all happen!
What awesome news!!!!!!
Congrats on the good news! :) Thats great!!!
I wish you the best and sending you lots of prayers on this journey!
Your strength is truly amazing!
Sending positive thoughts your way!
This is amazing... How great! :)
you are going through so much... i hope and pray that you get to feeling better and that that blood pressure of yours goes down. it is certainly good news that you found a surrogate! God's timing is perfect and I know you will have the desires of your heart in due time. take good care!
whoa...emotional roller coaster is right! you are meant to be a mom (again) and you WILL be. How exciting that the process is rolling for you!!
Juliana, all of this harship you're having to go through will be sooo worth it when you have another baby of your own... I just know it. God will not bring you to it if He won't get you through it-- you're a very strong and determined lady and I know it's going to work out!!!! All my prayers are with you sweetie
That is great news!!! I hope you take some time to breathe and relax and enjoy what is soon to come, xxxooo
Wow! That's great news! Congrats congrats congrats! Everything will be alright! Wishing you the best. I'll say a prayer for you!
First congrats on getting a surrogate!!! Thats awesome news. Second just keep your head up! Things always tend to work themselves out! Good luck with everything!
praying for you and all you're going through! you are SUCH a strong girl!!!
I am so happy for you! How exciting to have a surrogate! Praying for your health too...it will all work out!
Hugs, prayers and best of luck to you!
Great news!!! So happy to hear this for you!
So glad you have a surrogate! Hope that you will be able to use her soon and that it will all work out.
Will keep you in my prayers.
I'm looking forward to hearing your updates on surrogacy. How great that someone is going to help you. Best wishes for success with your eggs.
What wonderful news! You, her, and your family will be in my prayers!
Not quite sure what to say b/c I REALLY don't want to say the wrong thing ... but I hope you find peace in this situation. I cannot imagine what you are going through.
& I love your quotes... very inspiring
wow, thinking of you and your hubby! I'm sure it will all work out, you're exactly right: "Everything is going to be alright."
Stay strong like always, it will happen for you!!!
xoxox
Congrats on your news! And I pray for your health and your family. keep your head up!!
Wonderful news. You are in my thoughts!
What a roller coaster ride! That's great you have a surrogate. I'm sure everything will fall in place when it is meant to happen.
Don't try to avoid the storm. Learn how to dance in the rain.
When you feel better give me a call. Love u
That's great news. I think that is wonderful but I'm sorry to hear that your feeling so bad on your meds. Bless your heart, You are definitely in my prayers!
Congrats Juliana!! Best wishes for you that this can happen soon & you are healthy through it
Sending love and deep breaths your way.
It's all going to be okay.
I'm very excited that you guys have a surrogate! That's huge!
I'm very sorry about all the medical stuff you're dealing with. This will happen for you one way or another, and I really wish for the best for you.
Wow, You stay strong emotionally and the physical will follow. Keep the faith.
All the best and then some-
The Townhouselady
What wonderful news that you found a surrogate! I'm very excited for you!
I know it's a huge disappointment that you can't have the procedure done quite yet but I honestly believe that things all happen for a reason, even if we don't agree with it.
Oh, my dear girl, you just break my heart with this! Hang in there, keep believing, and keep that great attitude! I believe!
Hugs!!
Congrats on finding a surrogate! That's amazing news. I'm praying for nothing but the best for you and your family! xo
Stay strong! You are an amazing person and will find a way to make this happen!
THIS IS GREAT NEWS!
I am hoping with all my heart that this REALLY happens for you!!!
i seriously teared up reading this. you have such strength and determination and that is inspiring. i know God will bless you for being so faithful and hopeful, and i wish you nothing but the most beautiful things during this adventure! <3
I'm so happy that everything is working out so well for you. Keep your head high. You are beautiful and everything will work out just the way it should.
:D
Ashley
awfulbeautifuldisarray.blogspot.com
Congrats on finding a surrogate! How exciting!
Saying prayers for you that you will feel better.
Sending hugs and positive thoughts your way. I'm sure it will work out sooner than you think!
I am so happy for you. You are such a beautiful family and I believe your baby will happen. I couldn't think of better people to have another child.
First of all: wow I'm so happy for you!!! That's great news! But, I can't imagine what you're feeling. I am hoping and praying the for the very best for you guys! You deserve it :-)
hey, the email I just sent you was supposed to be from my account...I didn't realize I was in Mark's account.
"you can't have a rainbow without a storm first"
~author unknown
haven't know you for that long, but i am pretty sure you have had your share of storms...
...here is to your rainbow!
you are in my thoughts and prayers.
I really needed this post today. Thank you, thank you!!
Love xox,
Little Miss Paige
of the Make-A-Wish Foundation of Utah
Sending lots of love, hugs and prayers your way!! Things will all work out in the end
YAY!!!! love this!!!
Sending prayers your way and hoping for the best for you and your family.
Thanks for stopping by my blog and becoming a follower! I am now following you, good luck with surrogacy! Everything thing happens for a reason and this will all work out for you like it is supposed to :)
Thank you for sharing your wonderful news, as well as your struggles with your own health. I'm so very happy that you have a surrogate--one huge step in the right direction. I'm really hoping that you will find a regimen that stabilizes your health without (more) adverse affects than you already have to deal with. Can't wait for the day when you post news that your baby is here!
Calm down girl and keep that freakin heart within a normal rate!!!
I'm so happy for you. You must be busting with excitement.
I'm sending good health vibes your way.....right now.
That is awesome news!~ Keep the faith, it will all work out:) You certainly have a huge cheerleading team on your side!~ XXX000
Congrats on your wonderful news. Stay hopeful, I know everything will turn out well for you. You deserve it!
You're damned right someday it'll happen girly! Don't let your faith and confidence waver, you're so close!
I am so happy for you. I hope all goes well. Glad you are feeling better. Can't wait to find out more about this wonderful woman who is going to help you. Good for her. I love that people are so selfless like that.
Thank you so much for the quote about not always having to be strong. I love it and it has helped me. Thanks so much.
Congratulations! I'm so happy for you. I will definitely be thinking and sending positive thoughts your way.
I can't imagine all that you are going through. That is great you have found a surrogate! Best of luck with everything...sending lotsa prayers your way!
Holly cow lady! What news for your family!!
Congratulations ! I hope everything works out and that you get everything you've always wanted.
Sweet Julianna...
In HIS time...In HIS time.
Rest in his perfect peace.
HE KNOWS...HE KNOWS when YOU are ready.
Be still...
listen...
don't be anxious...
and know that HE is God...and hears your heart with every beat.
He will deliver all that you need.
In the meantime...
He chooses YOU to BEAM with FAITH and TRUST....leading others to know and trust HIM in this intimate way.
I am here for you...
and I am so excited for all that is ahead.
What a precious soul you are.
xxooxx
There is nothing more deceptive than a smile, an noone knows this better than the people who hide behind them. Some flash their teeth as a polite "morning" to their enemies, some put on beaming faces to keep their tears falling ,others were silly grooms to mask their fear, but then there is that rare smile, that is actually genuine! It's smile of the person who knows his troubles will soon be over...
Wish You all the best and praying for You! :))
AgyTalks
http://agytalks.blogpost.com
That's awesome! Hugs, vibes, and goodness that things continue to go well for you!
Thinking of you! I can't imagine how you are feeling right now. It has to be an emotional roller coaster for you.
Love you Jewels. I know somehow, someway God will give you more children. You were meant to be a mommy of lots and lots of kiddos. I'll keep praying for you and John. Love and AOE.
That's great news about having a surrogate! I'm sorry there's some health obstacles but you sound really positive and that's a good place to be!
Hugs~ I'm sorry to here this. I pray that everything will work out for you. Just keep your head up & know that God is on your side. ♥
Good Luck! I will be thinking about you throughout this adventure!
Shane
Congrats on the Surrogate. I'm sorry to hear about the difficulties with the egg removal though. Sending positive thoughts that it can be done and safely.
I am so happy for you! Hoping everything goes smoothly with you and will keep you guys in my thoughts!!
OMG, I am so happy for you and crossing my fingers.
Peace to you in these rollercoaster times.
Great news! I'm really happy for you love. Hope everything will turn out good for you. God bless you! ;p
Good luck! What an inspirational post! Your optimism is truly inspiring!
I love how you find a solution to everything Juliana. Love your optimism and positive attitude in light of what you are going through right now. I am hoping, wishing and praying for you. You're an inspiring lady. I know everything will work out for you and your family.
I just have to say that I was deeply touched with your last post about Grieving. I am in that process ever since my loving son departed. It is something I feel I will always go through till that one sweet day when he and I are reunited. I feel all the other emotions you mentioned as well, but try my best to be strong and happy for him, my son, who I know would not want nothing else for me. He is why I do it all for.
Thank you for being you, you are truly amazing. God bless you always.
thanks for stopping by and yes i cant wait to see AND hopefully hang with miss handler ; )
i feel so out of the loop with all your dealing with but im glad you are feeling better about things and that things are looking up.
my wife has a tattoo that reads 'this too shall pass' and its so unbelievably true. everything has its season and the title of your post is dead on.
remember you need both sun AND rain for a rainbow : )
Wow, great news! Good luck with everything...God has a great plan for you. :)
Lauren
lrstewart0711.blogspot.com
The surrogate is great news!!
Not the new meds and you feeling sick. YOu have so much Strength!
xoxo
Hang in there lady. You're on the road to that second munchkin!
thinking of you and wishing you the best!!
You've got so much going on... this tugged at my heart. Sending prayers and good thoughts your way!
Hugs,
Genny
I am so glad I read this to hear your wonderful news. Hooray! Hooray! Hooray! Everything WILL fall in to place...
Just by reading your blog........I know things will work out for you!!
Just hold on, things will be okay.!
This is awesome news though, with time things will fall into place.!
I can only imagine the roller coaster! Wow! Hang in there. Things worth having are worth the wait!!
i applaud your courage, dear jewels...
best wishes, always...!
on another note...
i would love it if you stopped by my blog and helped me name my new piece of furniture...! i need some creative geniuses to come up with the perfect name! and a little gift for the successful namer, too!!
thanks!
xoxo
I'm so happy for you! I wish you the best for this!!!
I'm happy you found a surrogate! That's amazing! I'm sorry your health is an issue right now! I wish you the best!
Well that's wonderful that you found a surrogate. Somehow things find a way into the light...it might take alot of dark hours but the sun comes up!! I wish you all the luck stabilizing yourself to do the process. I haven't had pregnancy body issues but I've had two medical surgeries so finding that physical balance is a tough thing. But everything will be okay. Best wishes dear.
Thanks so much! That really means a lot!
Praying for you all...
I'm following from MBC GFC. I have a new address that I just mentioned over there, http://www.creativemadnessmama.com so please follow there. Thanks! I hope to get to know you soon. *grin*
So excited for you!! Please keep us updated on how things go. This is a roller coaster and This will work out for you. We are here for you. :) Thank you for all of your support.
Congratulations on your donor! I can't even imagine how hard it must be knowing that they can't retrieve your eggs right now. I'll be thinking about you!
-Lanie Ree
Life in the Pitts
Yaaaay so glad everything is working out for you! Can't wait to hear how everything turns out. :)
I am so glad that you have found a surrogate, that makes my heart so happy for you =) I cannot even imagine the roller coaster of a ride that you have been going through ever since I first started reading your blog. You're such an inspiration for so many others! Keep your head high and the Lord will bless you.
loves.
INCREDIBLE news! Good things happen to good people. Always!
I hope everything changes for the better for you and your family.
Here is an award for you:
http://mariany559.blogspot.com/2010/04/blog-award.html
Good luck darlin'....you'll be in my thoughts and prayers.
What a lot you have to deal with - am thinking of you and know that things will work out for you in the end. I went through IVF to have my precious bub but what you're going through must be so much more difficult. Sending lots of hugs your way x
I wish you the best with this...yay on the surrogate! As soon as I win the lottery, I'll send some your way! :)
Take care of yourself.
Hey girl,
Thanks for commenting on my confusion over the blog hop. Yep, I am talking about the Friday Follow. I saw that you were on it this week, but it wasn't on your blog. I tried pasting the code onto my blog but that didn't work. Does it go in my layout somewhere? It is confusing. I did manage to get my blog into the hopper. So people can click on me. And I can go back to another friend's page to click on her hopper to look at blogs. Uggh.
If you stop by again, check out the blog called ONLY CONNECT. It was the one I wrote around the deleted Grey's Anatomy scene. Hope things are going well for you. Keep on keeping on:-)
You've waited this long, don't worry about a few more weeks...you'll just get your blood pressure up higher fretting. It'll work out. Meditate. Meditation hasn't worked for me, but everyone else says it works, so...
I happened upon your blog today. It must have been meant to be because I really needed your strength quotes today. I will pray for you that all goes well for you and your journey!
I know you will find a way! Hang in there. I hope you feel better.
wow, congrats on the surrogate! That's awesome!
And I saw comments were closed on the post about your brother, but I just wanted to send you a note of love, letting you know that I'm saying a prayer for you to feel a sense of peace and healing as you continue to deal and process with grief and loss and love. I hope you are doing okay today, and thanks for sharing your personal story with others.
Psalm 40: 1-17
"He set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand."
I'm really happy for you and I can't even imagine how you are feeling. Good luck with everything coming your way, you deserve it! I would love for you to stop by my blog if you get the chance. God bless!
I have been gone from your blog for WAY too long!!! HUGS GIRL! Best wishes!!!!
As you say in your other post, you are an eternal optimist. Anything is possible. Best wishes to both of you.
i love that middle quote.
and i wish the best to you and your family.
congrats on finding a surrogate! :)
I need to know just what Karyn will change with that =D
-My regards,
Carol
Harley, I don't think so!?!
Warm Regards
Toni
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