Monday, January 3, 2011

Hello 2011

Hello 2011,

Hi guys! It's me, it's been a lot longer than I realized.  So much has happened that I don't even know where to start. I'll recap with the few pictures I've got in this blog...but I sure have missed everyone.  I'm still in bed...5 months now.  It's been hard, really REALLY hard...but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.  We know what's wrong now and I am going to get my life back.  I'll explain more in future blogs...nothing else really happened in my life except health stuff, lots of hospitals, multiple 911 calls and many specialists to figure out why my body has been so broken...

BUT...I miss my blog. I miss blogging. I miss reading blogs. I miss getting free stuff, I miss the money, I miss the whole damn thing!

I used to love to blog...my blog was my sweet release. It was the place I went to unleash a flood of emotions through words that were often just flowing through my fingers and sometimes made no sense. Still, they made me feel better and eventually this blog became more than just a release because I met you guys.  I met people who have changed my life for a moment, for a lifetime.  Then I lost all my comments when I got my lovely blog makeover and it crushed me that all those memories were lost forever.  Once I got sick my blog was more for me than anyone. My blog wasn't what it always was and I lost a lot of followers and comments...but it's my blog my life. I can't control the way things have been or how they still are and once again this blog was started for me.  I'm regaining it back.  I'm healthy enough to blog again and am slowly going to get back into it.

Miss you guys. (Please don't be offended if I takes me awhile to get to your blog...I'll get there eventually)

P.S. To the wonderful etsy sellers and small businesses that sent me product that I have yet to review and go giveaways with...I will start scheduling them slowly as my health allows.

My life in pictures the last 5 months-
1st picture-At the beginning of my illness when I had pneumonia. I had just walked from the cot to the curb and my proud hubby took this picture. Little did I know what was to come. I felt like crap in this picture and was NOT pleased with my newest fashion accessory. 
2nd-Dexter came into my life and kept me company through the roughest days.
3rd-How I spent almost the majority of a couple months totally FLAT or on my side
4th-My pissed off heart!  In the cardiac unit they couldn't figure out why I wasn't getting better. Then I got an unknown virus from the hospital that made me REALLY ill.  Little did we know I have multiple immune deficiencies and couldn't fight it at all.  (I start IVIG and SubQ infusions for the rest of my life hopefully this week!)
5-I have a whole photo album of these. Since I couldn't go out and do anything my sorority sisters took a cardboard cut out of me on all sorts of adventures!  People were so nice-they took pictures of Christmas lights including my own house so I could get to see everything.  People brought Christmas to our house this year.  We were so overwhelmed with all the love and support.
6-My doctors appointment last week
7-On Christmas we had me lay on the floor near the tree. I lasted three hours and then paid for it for days, but it was worth it! Here's a picture of Johnny falling asleep on me. Being away from him so much was the hardest part of this experience. This was one of the best moments of my year.


QOTD: "To live every day as if it had been stolen from death, that is how I would like to live. To feel the joy of life, as Eve felt the joy of life. To separate oneself from the burden, the angst, the anguish that we all encounter every day. To say I am alive, I am wonderful, I am. I am. That is something to aspire to."
— Garth Stein ...

104 comments:

themrs said...

i am so glad to hear you are ok! total stranger to total stranger...i have been so worried about you! i can't begin to fathom what you are going through but know that people are praying for you :) one follower is still here!

Chantel said...

I am so happy to here that they know what's wrong and you will be making a recovery. I was hoping that would happen! I just couldn't imagine 5 months in bed and not being able to chase after my babies. My heart just breaks for you when I hear that and I get a little teary. I hope your road to recovery goes smoothly and that your back to chasing your little guy in no time.

Jess said...

It is SO good to hear from you!!! I've been worried.

So sorry you've been so ill and have gone through so much. Praying for you!

Krystal said...

So good to see you back online, was worried about you after our words with friends game never finished ;) i hope you're getting better and stronger, here's to a great 2011!

Jojo said...

I'm so happy that you're back!!! You will be better in no time. It's a new year and your friends are cheering you on!

Kassie said...

I had been thinking of you and wondering how you were doing when I was looking through my blog roll. I'm glad they know what's wrong and that you are on your way mending!

Jus and Kat said...

Welcome back, hope 2011 treats you (and your body) better than 2010 did! :)

Jenni said...

It is so good to hear that there is light at the end of the tunnel for you and i can't wait to find out what has been wrong!


When I saw your blog pop up in my reader today, I let out a small squeal and immediately opened it up!

I can't imagine what you have been going through, but I am so glad that you are starting to make your way back, slowly! Slow and steady always win the race you know!

gmontalvo13 said...

glad you are feeling better! even in your worst of times, you still look great! :)
here's to a better 2011!

Julie said...

I have been wondering about and praying for you. i'm glad to hear they have a diagnosis and you'll be undergoing treatment to get well! The not knowing is sometimes the worst! Looking forward to future post!!!

The Wife In Her New Life said...

I have thought about you often! I am so glad to hear there is a light at the end of the tunnel and that they FINALLY know what is going on with you!
Prayers are still sent your way often and I hope that the treatments you {hopefully} start this week help get you back to the woman you were before all this started.

Steph said...

So, so glad you are still alive and kicking! I know we are total strangers but I have been so worried that perhaps the worst had happened! Glad that they know what is wrong and have a plan to help you feel better so you can get back to chasing around after your boy. Praying that life will continue to upswing for you now in the new year.

Wombat Central said...

I'm also a stranger to you, but I've been rooting for you all along. I'm teary just reading your quote (I'm reading "The Art of Racing in the Rain" right now--is it from that book?) I'm so glad to hear you're finally on the mend! :) Dexter looks so sweet, and that picture of you and your little boy melts my heart. You look like one happy mama. Bless you!

Venassa said...

I'm so glad to hear that you are okay, and you are on the path to getting better. Oddly enough you popped into my mind yesterday and I was wondering how you were doing. Sounds like you've been on quite the scary ride.

Rebekah said...

I love that you're back to blogging. I'll be praying for you as your health improves. I'm so glad they finally know what's going on!

Janine said...

Oh my goodness ... it is so good to have you back! Do you know how prayed for you are precious lady! Well ... we just keep praying till you are back to your healthy self! Sending you much love and celebrating a new and wonderful year for you this year!

Ashley @ KiwisandCocktails said...

I am so happy to hear they figured out what is wrong! YOU have been so missed!!! That cardboard cut out is AMAZING!! HoW nice of your friends to do that! I hope things start to get better soon so you can get back to that adorable little guy of yours :)

Mortimer said...

It's really amazing to hear that they've found out what's been hurting you for so long is. I had to do a double take when I saw that you had posted! I hope your 2011 is much better than your 2010. Sounds like you really deserve it.

Sara B said...

Glad to hear some of the mystery has been solved. Hope 2011 is the beginning of your recovery and long term health!

Jody said...

I'm so happy to hear that you are well enough to blog again!!!!!

Jill said...

It's great to have you back!!! I hope u get completely better soon. Hang in there you're a strong woman!

Cara said...

So glad you are feeling better!!! I wish you continued good health!!

Katherine, Jerrod and Elizabeth said...

So glad you are okay and back. Been praying for you all the time. Was very worried about you.

Lyr said...

Wow! I was wondering where you went! Glad to have you back!

Robin said...

I just said a prayer for you last night. You have been on my worry list for a long time. It was such a relief when I saw your blog come up on my google reader. I still don't really understand what is wrong with you, but it appears that it is serious and related to your immune function. Obviously, I knew it was serious. The last time you blogged you had me seriously worried about you. Auto immune diseases? I am going to look your treatment up on the internet. Just because I care. Love you Juliana. Glad you're back. You were very much missed.

Annie said...

SO glad to hear from you and that you are going to be getting better day by day.

Keep on being strong and pushing! You can do it!

Jacoba said...

Dear Juliana,
First of all - 'Gelukkig Nieuwjaar' from Holland! It so so good to see you back on top of my reading list 'Rendez vous aux jardins'. There were two people I was so worried about during the Holiday Season, and that was you, and Natasha, from Brisbane, who is experiencing biblical floods in the neighbourhood.
I am so happy things are better with you now, that you are able to hold your little boy.
You will get there! Hold on!
All the positive thinking of all your blog friends no doubt has helped an itsiepeenee in your recovery.
Happy days!
Jacoba

Steph said...

I am glad you are getting back on your feet. Take all the time you need!

Jamee @ A New Kind of Normal said...

I am so glad to hear you are on the mend! You have definitely been in my thoughts and prayers. I have multiple chronic illnesses as well and I just cannot imagine what you have been going through! So glad to hear that they have finally figured it out! I hope your recovery continues to go in the right direction & look forward to reading your blog posts!

Ashley said...

so glad you are feeling better - thanks for the update. happy 2011!

Mateya said...

I was just thinking about you the other day! I am glad to hear you are okay and you are seeing some light at the end of the tunnel!

Christy said...

Juliana! I'm SO glad to hear that you're ok! I was just saying to my boyfriend last night that I hoped you were doing well! Happy New Year and I'm so so sorry you're not feeling 100%. You're in my thoughts and prayers!

Ashley said...

So glad to see you blogging again! Keep getting stronger, xoxo

Lots of love!

Ashley said...

Glad to see you blogging again. Love you, keep getting stronger!

Janie B said...

Wonderful to hear that you are going to be okay. Bless you for all you've been through. I hope the rest of the healing time will be quick and painless. Take care of yourself. You are what matters.

Sarah RDH said...

I was really worried about you!! I feared the worst. I am glad you are back! Best wishes in your recovery!

Lindsay Hovden said...

Jewels, I have been checking your blog daily since the last time you wrote, you don't know how happy it made me to finally see that you were able to write! The last picture of you and Johnny brought tears to my eyes, I can not imagine what not being able to be the mother you want to to your son has been like. love you and glad you are back on here! :)

Linds

Dawn said...

i hope 2011 finds you feeling better-sounds like you know what's going on so hopefully that means you'll be feeling better-glad you're back on your blog!

Ashley said...

I'm psyched to see that you are feeling better again! I am really interested in hearing about what happened..

Oh and love the kitty! I couldn't live without mine. :)

Tiffany said...

I have really been thinking aobut you lately and wondering how things were going. I am so glad to hear from you and hope you get better soon. I cannot image how hard the past few months have been.

Sydney said...

It's so great to hear from you again!! I've been so worried. I know you're not better yet, but I'm glad you finally know what's wrong and what to do about it. Here's to a much better 2011!!

Shell said...

I have been thinking about you! I will keep you in my prayers!

jordiegirl said...

I'm still here too. Look forward to having you blog again after all the time you have been away due to your ill-health. Hope they get this sorted out for you soon and you can get back to normal (well as normal as possible).

Best wishes and hope 2011 is a better year for you.

Scott said...
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Scott said...

Yay! She's back! What is it? Is it hantavirus? Did you go to the Mayo? Who figured it out? Did you use a webcam from the hospital to see your son? Where in the world IS Carmen Sandiego? Who knows what evil lurks within the hearts of man? How many psychiatrists does it take to change a light bulb? Why'd they force me to learn logarhythms in high school, isn't that more of a college math major thing? Welcome Back!!!

Brittany said...

Dear Juliana,
I just had just started reading your blog before you became sick, so I can't really comment on what it "was." I can tell you with absolute certainty that this IS (by far) the most raw, emotional and powerful blog post I have ever read. I do not know you, and most likely never will, but I can see the strength and the life in your eyes.

You are a fighter.

God bless you and your family!

Erin

sprinkles said...

Welcome back! I've thought of you often and continued to pray for you. I'm so sorry you're still so ill but I'm glad to know you're still around. I've missed you!

I'm glad the drs. figured out what's wrong with you, hopefully now they can start making you feel better.

Tickled Pink said...

Thanks for the update!! Hope this year brings you good health! :)

Susannah said...

OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!! You are okay! I have been thinking about you and wondering and checking the blog often-even twittering if anyone had heard anything!

I'm so glad you know what is going on, and I pray that you are feeling a bit better and on the road to recovery!!

And yay for Christmas and snuggling with that sweet baby!

xoxo

Ashley said...

Thinking of you!

CMae said...

I'm Glad they figured out a little bit so it sounds what is wrong with you... I'll admit I contemplated if I should of stopped following...not to be morbid but I wasn't sure if you had made it....no one that "knows you" seem to leave any comment updates! I'm glad you're back!

That one girl said...

Girl, how many times do I have to tell you to drink more wine?

Feeling dizzy? Must be the wine, in no way am I sick!

It seriously makes all problems disappear! :)

Good to see you back here!

Tiffany said...

I am so happy to see a post from you. <3 I have looked several times every day looking for a post a tweet or something. I even asked people in my blog if they had heard from you. I am thankful that you were able to post this update and can't wait to read more.

kelly ann said...

oh my goodness, i have tears in my eyes!! it is so good to see an update from you. you have been in my prayers this whole time and even though i have never met you in real life, i was SO worried about you!! i'm so glad the doctors know what's wrong now, i hope and pray you that one day soon you will be skipping and running and dancing and are completely healthy. <3 i will continue to pray for you!

Kate said...

Yay Jules! I am so so so so happy things are looking up for you. I've been thinking about you and praying for you! You are such a strong woman. Go girl go!

lilliebean said...

I found your blog shortly after you got sick, and have been worried SICK (no pun intended) about you and hoping you've been getting better! I'm excited you're feeling better and that I'll get to read more of your posts!

gayle said...

I've been worried about you too. I asked about you on one of your older post...not sure if you got it. As a matter of fact I was just thinking about you today. I am so sorry that you have had to go through all that you have been through! Praying!

Anonymous said...

love u jewels, stay strong! tam~~

Paige said...

still sending good thoughts your way...glad to hear from you and I hope you feel better soon!! xoxo

The Mason Bunch said...

I just wanted to say "Welcome Back". Little did you know, but I've been worried about you. I'd check in on you from time to time these past few months, looking and waiting for an update. Bless your heart! You have. been. through. it! I'm so glad that you are feeling stronger. The Lord is hearing those many many prayers going up for you. I was so pleased and it brought tears to my eyes to see that last picture of you finally holding your little boy. I remember reading a few posts before you got worse about how much you missed holding and playing with him. How you couldn't tend to him like you normally would because you were so sick. Girl, I want you to know that you will remain in my prayers and hope that your strength will increase every day. God Bless and HUGS! Your Blog Friend,

Ginger said...

I am so glad that you are feeling better and will get even better as time passes. We're all glad you're blogging again, but please take care of yourself!

Karen Mortensen said...

Thank you so much for posting. I have really been worried about you and wondering how you have been. I am so glad you are feeling better and they know what to do. Keep up your great spirit.

BYW, I think you look amazing.

Sarah said...

I am so glad you are feeling well enough to start blogging again. Well keep praying...

Chic 'n Cheap Living said...

I'm still here and was just wondering how you were the other day, So glad you're recovering and with your family and Johnny where you should be!

Anita said...

I have my own health challenges and seeing you fight to get well as been a big inspiration to me to enjoy life and be thankful for everything. Praying for your continued recovery!

Rebecca said...

Still here...glad to hear you're getting some answers. This really sounds horrible, but hopefully you're on the mend. Hang in there, girl! Vent whenever you need to!

Lindsey said...

Glad you are back and on your way to recovery!

Raine said...

Welcome back! I was so worried about you! A fellow blogger and myself were just talking about you last week. Im so glad you are feeling a little better. And it is so nice to see you smiling! <3

Joanne said...

So glad that you are back.... (from another total stranger). Hopefully, on the right road to recovery and a healthier 2011. Welcome home!

Connie K said...

Glad to hear your feeling much better !!Sending you love & prayer for you & your family :) Can't wait to see you blog more ive really missed it ! Take care. Xoxo

Kmama said...

There you are!! I just thought about you the other day, wondering what was going on.

I'm glad they now know what is going on and hopefully you will make a remarkable recovery!

Anonymous said...

Sweetie we are SO glad you back with us and on the road to getting healthy! I can't tell you how relieved I was to see your posting pop up in my Google reader this morning!

Worthington said...

Love your example of true strength and optimism! Good for you!

Katie said...

So glad to hear an update! And glad that you now have a diagnosis that can be resolved.

Andrea said...

I'm so happy to hear that you are on the mend:-) You are still in my prayers!

Tiffany said...

I'm so glad you posted! I was just over here the other day wondering how you were doing, but there was no update. I'm glad the Dr has figured out what's wrong. I hope you start getting better soon!

Aly @ Analyze This said...

I was just thinking about you the other day! I actually was asking some fellow bloggers!

I admire your honesty through all of this - you are inspiring!

melifaif said...

Oh lady....the OMG you left on my blog....just made me jump!!! I couldn't believe it was you. I have been praying and thinking about you ALOT! I am sorry you have been so ill, but I am thrilled they have diagnosed you so you can begin to get better. Please know I will not stop praying for you. You have terrific family and friends. You keep fighting the good fight....much love and many blessings in 2011!

Mere said...

I'm so HAPPY to hear from you!! I'll keep praying for you xo

Love, Mere

Lisa G said...

this has been a terrible year for so many!! Was thinking of you the other day and kept checking your blog site--so happy to hear from you!! GET WELL SOON!!! Your baby needs you!

{Selma} Crazy Little World Of Mine said...

I'm so happy to hear from you. :)
Your strength is encouragement enough to love life in all its colors, shapes and moments!!!!

My thoughts are with you. :) Always.

May 2011 be a fantastic year for you, it just has to be, no?!

xoxo

Becca said...

I am SO SO SO sad to hear {or read} this!!!! I am glad that they do now know what is wrong with you and that you get better soon! I can't imagine.... HUGS!

Jessica said...

I was SO happy to see a post from you and even more so to hear that you are going to get better!!

Hilldog said...

Oh you have been so heavy on my heart! I was beginging to worry the worst- I am glad you are still kicking and fighting! It is sooooo good to hear you are doing better and that somone finally figured out what was going on! Keep the updates coming as you gain your strong back, know I am still praying for you! Here is a little scripture I like to turn to...
Ephesians 6:10-11 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.

Vanessa said...

I'm so glad to hear they have found what is wrong! I hope the path to recovery is fast and I'm sending lots of positive thoughts your way! <3

Cindy said...

Oh, Juliana! I'm so happy to see your post. I have been so worried about you, and have kept you in my prayers. Bless your heart. I am so relieved to hear that the doctors have discovered what's wrong...hopefully there are treatments that will help you get well.

Please continue to update as you have the energy. (((Many big hugs)))

Phoenix said...

Oh sweetie - I am so glad you are back, that you are healthier, and that you seem stronger than ever (at least emotionally.) I am keeping my fingers crossed that you kick even more ass in 2011 and that you have nothing but wonderful experiences to build on.

So much love,
Tracy

Anna said...

It is so good to hear from you. I am so glad you have a diagnosis and are going to get better. My thoughts are with you and your family.

Megan said...

I'm so glad you are back and on the up and up! Missed your bloggins! Happy 2011!

PinkLouLou said...

Sweet Juliana,

I am so happy you are back. I think about you often, and pray for you to get better.

I just started crying at work. That sweet picture of you and baby boy is absolutely precious.

Sending LOVE your way.

xoxo

Kendra said...

I hope you have a wonderful and easier recovery. I know things have been super hard on you lately. I miss talking to you. It is not the same around here without you. ):

*LLUVIA* said...

Oh wow! What a year! :(

I hope you are feeling better or getting better! A virus in the hospital?!!! You know, I thought my husband was crazy for wanting to take me out of there soon after I gave birth!

So glad to hear you made it through all that. I'm still following you! I've enjoyed your inspiring posts (even if I don't comment).

Jewels Diva® said...

Here I've been feeling sick as a dog over New Years and now I read this and bawl my eyes out.

What I've got is nothing compared to what you're going through and I wondered the other day how you were and if you were still with us.

It's good to see you are.

ag. said...

It is so good to see you back on your blog and know that you're okay. I only started following your blog just before you stopped writing and I've been thinking about you ever since. My thoughts are still with you and I hope you continue to get better!!!

Breezi@ Not Your Average Fairytale said...

You're back!! YAY!!!

I'm so glad you're feeling well enough to post again!

Big hugs!

Genuinely.unique said...

Even though i just started reading your blog, i'm glad you're OK now :)

If you want a blog here's mine, maybe reading about other people's lives makes you feel better:
Genuinely.unique.blogspot.com

Noemi said...

Started following you late this eveing, your story brought tears to my eyes but they were mostly happiness for you, although we have never met, I sincerely wish you a very speedy recovery, I will keep you in my prayers!

♥ Noemi
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Kari said...

what a wonderful blog to read today. i check back often to see if there are any new posts - this made me smile to see you on here again. i'm glad you finally got some answers, i truly am. again, if you ever need anything - i literally live about 5 minutes from you. please let me know.
kari in littleton

Truthful Mommy said...

Juliana,
I am so glad that you are getting better. I have missed you and your fighting positive spirit!Get well and come back to us!
Debi

www.motherhoodthetruth.com

Snowbrush said...

Those hospital germs (nosocomial infections, they're called) are some of the worst because they're resistant to treatment. Of course, you know this better than I.

I'm so glad you're finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.

Buy Exchange said...

You have a great blog dear! Keep posting!

Katherine Josh said...

i've been drinking bird nest soup every night (i only get the homemade kind back at home). the only reason why i drink it is because it's supposed to be good for complexion.

i’ve been taking the store-bought kind online (e.g. www.geocities.jp/hongkong_bird_nest/index_e.htm of famous branded only of course) which is directly mailed from Hong Kong. this would be at a more affordable price.

Melissa said...

So glad to see that you are back and slowly getting healthier. You have been on my mind and I saw lots of prayers for you! I am so sorry I am just getting to catch up with you, but life with my twins has been very overwhelming and I have slacked on blog reading. No excuse! I cannot imagine what you are going through, but please remember that we are all praying for you and you are always in our thoughts. Please keep blogging so we can keep up with you and know exactly what prayers you are needing! Health I know, but specifics! ;) Keep going strong and fighting for that sweet angel of yours!

Miss Caitlin S. said...

omg :) thinking of you so much. hugs, hugs. hugs. You are so loved!